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It's time you all know: I'm going back to college!!! I am soo excited about it! The thought of going back had lingered in my mind for some time but financial reasons held me back.
It must have been January 2nd I went to go talk with the school about the possibilty of my returning. Unfortunately they were closed that day - bummer. So I went home and got everything I would need. Referances, a check, ACT scores (just incase!)- I wanted to have everything and anything they might need. I went back the following Monday and BOOM BANG they were open! Sweeeet! They asked questions, I answered them and vise-versa. They said I would need something and BAM I whipped it out of my folder. I was ready! None of that waiting around stuff for me! They asked if I wanted to try for spring term and I said I would like to try. Want a secret? Spring term starts January 6th. WHOA! WHAT?! You bet you're belly lint! Soooo, I fill out a re-admit application and I am told they will look things over and will hear from them soon. Woo! Looking good.
I go home and wait. And probably mess around at the computer. And then.. BBB Baad BBB Baaad BBB Baad Bad to the bone (that was my ring tone at the time) "Hello?" Yes. . it was them. I am accepted! WOOO!! HOWEVER I did so bad last time I went (my one semester 5 years ago when I couldn't make up my mind, probably didn't have proper motivation and wasn't mature enough) that my GPA is a (are you ready for it) a whopping (deep breath) 1.7 so I am on academic probation meaning I can only take up to 13 credits. WHICH, is ok. It's a nice way to ease me back into the school scene.
SO YAY! I can go!! WHOOO.. NOW, to get those shifts covered the rest of the week!! I don't think I can be at school and work at the same time. Fortunately it's a low time at work and people are happy to take the hours.
You thinking "well what changed between now and the past? Did you when the lottery?" That's a good question. The answer is no. I did not win the lottery. Infact, after being accepted I ran into financial difficulty and was constantly told I should try Chemeketa or wait till next term, but I couldn't. My heart said now. And it said Corban. I had to get loans. No one likes loans but they like God. And God is bigger then X amount of loans. And I can't put a price on how happy I will be following God's will.
I got some money through the school and had to apply for loans for the rest. This is where a big problem hit. I applied and everytime I was told I needed a co-signer. A co signer is some one with good credit and a decent income. My credit is fine. .
Unfortunatly I am the only one I know with good credit. Apparently you can't have both. So I was shoved back to square one. It was hard to put 100% into classes not knowing if I would get to stay. I went and talked with Ellen in financial aid (I also used to go to church with her) and we talked and she said to try to go now because she saw how excited I was that first day and how God wants me there. We both got teary-eyed as we prayed for an answer. After the prayer I got up to get a tissue (my nose was REALLY runny!!) and as I turn around, Nathan (the head of financial aid) came in and said he had quick results from a search for trying to find me aid. We JUST finished praying. - Just something to think about. I was relieved and the more I think about it, the more I realize how great God is. I got the remainder of my money through a grant by declaring my major: Education (teach grant)so in less than 24 hours, my problems were solved and I am officially in!
YAY!!!!!! WOOOO!!! PARRR-TAAAY!! - Just kidding, there's no time for that!
I am really enjoying school! I am loving it even! I am soooo glad to be back. Even though it can be a little overwhelming and stressful I am enjoying the challenge.
I'm sure there will be several trials I face on this journey but I am going to work past them. turn towards God and not give up. I believe God has amazing things planned for my life and I am so excited to see what they are.

You can see where the treasure is on a map, but you can only get to it by following it. I want to follow Gods map.

(I'd like to have a special THANKS shout out to Stephanie, Chris, Cali, Katie, Tara, Laura, Brenda, Bryndle,Cody, and Raeanna, for covering shifts for me, helping me homework, and/or supporting me in going back to school. And a THANKS to Nathan (even though he won't read this) for doing all he can to make it possible for me to attend this term. THANKS to Ellen for her support, prayers, rides home, and general assistance in my going back to school. THANKS to Cathy (student life) for being someone I can talk with. THANKS to Esther, Rachel, and Jason for supporting me in going back to school despite my poor history of school commitment! THANKS to Daniel for going over paper work. THANKS to my Mommy for going over paper work and taking me to school and handing me my morning Boost! And THANKS to God for this opportunity!) (sorry if I forgot anyone or anything!)

1 Corinthians 2:9

But as it is written, EYE HATH NOT SEEN, NOR EAR HEARD, NEITHER HAVE ENTERED INTO THE HEART OF MAN, THE THINGS WHICH GOD HATH PREPARED FOR THEM THAT LOVE HIM.

TAG - You're it!

Actually, I'm it.
I got tagged and now I must confess 16 secrets that people may not know about me. Are you ready?

1) I am envious of people who rarely use their cell phones.
2) I want to learn guitar. And then I want to be able to sing whilst playing the guitar.
3) I love the word "whilst" (don't use it too much around me or it will lose it's flare)
4) When I feel really down, I do something ridiculous to make myself laugh out of pure absurdity.
5) I don't like eating in the dark.
6) I randomly get Spice Girls stuck in my head. It's REALLY random!
7) My toes curl when I'm excited or happy!
8) I don't like chocolate frosting.
9)I have a scar on the tip of my second toe on my right foot. Sometimes it hurts.
10) I like shaving my legs. . That's about it though! And I could do without having to shave my knees. I always seem to miss hairs on my knees.
11) I LOVE playing dress up (shocking, I know)
12) Sometimes I wish I were in the 50's. I feel my desires would be more socially acceptable. . and would feel more realistic.
13) When I was little, I wanted glasses and braces. . . I got both.
14) I used to have a tooth in the roof of my mouth. I would get sandwiches with mayonnaise or peanut butter, and jolly ranchers stuck between that tooth and the back of my upper teeth.
15) I don't like yogurt with chunks, but I do my milkshakes (so long as it's not fruit. It's the soggy fruit I can't handle. BLECH!!)
16) Sometimes I . . .
Hey - I can't tell you all my secrets!

New Year!

As the year rounds off and the new year fastly approaches, I am finding myself surprisingly excited. I don't need to fully recap 2008, but it was the kind of a year that makes me throw out my calendar in November. I did a lot of growing this last year and I know there is more to come, but now that I got the ball rollin' and the bulk out of the way I think the rest is just ironing out the wrinkles.

I have a few personal goals but will keep them to myself as I feel it may be easier to keep them and less dissapointing should I not fully succeed.

As was the case for this last year, I may be distant here and there but please bare with me as I learn to iron out the wrinkles of life!

I have high hopes and a good feeling about this next year and can't wait to see what it brings!!

Take with salt

A few years back I wrote a few poems about people I knew. I really only wrote about four of them, but I just found two:

My hands are mostly germy
My nails are hardly there.
I should take a shower
And maybe wash my hair.

My face could use a washin'
Perhaps a little shave.
I'm sure by now you're thinking
I just crawled out a cave.

My arms could use a work out
Perhaps deoderant.
I didn't know that moldy shoe
Was not the hot new scent.

My hair could use a brushin'.
My breath smells like old clam.
Hello, it's nice to meet you.
My name is Pee Hand Sam.

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You hair is too frizzy
Your nose full of snot.
Tall, blonde and blue eyed
is something you're not.

Your frame is so short;
A ridiculous height.
You skin; pre-baked pastry
Is unnaturally white.

You pierce your whole body
To look just like swiss cheese.
When ever you shave
You leave hair on your knees.

Your lips are shaped funny.
Your hands are too dry.
At the drop of a hat
WATCH OUT!!!!! She might cry!!

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Weren't those lovely?

It's Finally Here!!

It's Finally CHRISTMAS!!!!!

Of course, it's been Christmas for awhile now, but some of you don't recognize Thanksgiving and sometimes Halloween as Christmas sublet holidays . But now Thanksgiving has come and gone. It is now December. It is FINALLY Christmas! So whip out that holiday spirit and spread that Christmas cheer!

Extra! Extra! Read all about it!

I'm not really sure what got me thinking about this, but I'm fairly certain it came while I was at church. I got to thinking about peoples actions. Their words. Their justifications. I got to wondering if people would act the same if what we did, was viewable not only to us and our close circle of those we surround ourselves with; but what if what we did suddenly became something for all to see.
What if one Sunday morning you pour your cup of coffee. You sit down in your oversized chair and grab the paper.
You begin to flip through: Sports. No thanks. Weather. Rainy. Obituaries. Engagments. Anniversaries. Affairs. Murderers. Rapists. Liars. Manipulators.

What if you were flipping through and you saw what you thought was your well hidden secret, right there in print. Page 34D of your local newspaper.

Would you find yourself in shock? In regret? Would you feel ashamed? Would you rush to call the paper to report how you are justified?
Would you still feel justified? Would a new perspective have been put on things? - Maybe you did whatever you did just for some cheap thrills. Maybe your mission wasn't yet accomplished and now that you see your plan in print, you are awakened and free to find a better use of your time with little repercussion.

It is easy to think that if my actions and words were put on a more public display I would be a little more cautious as to my behavior. Then I hear that little voice inside me. Reminding me that they are. All we do is viewable.We are always being watched (by God.)
Perhaps it would be easier to keep ourselves in check if we knew that if we slipped, we'd run the risk of being tomorrows reading material for some one flipping through the paper while they drink their morning coffee.

But maybe, as you flipped through your own paper and saw a part of your life before your eyes, you didn't feel anything. Maybe you just sipped your coffee and continued on to the Sunday comics.